Friday, September 15, 2006
& in one afternoon everything changed
i'm closing this blogwasn't that interesting anyway
my life just got really weird
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lauren alyse belle at 10:22 AM
Monday, August 28, 2006
my boy sean lawrence james
told me i ought to start a music blog. i know i don't too much share my opinions and reviews of music on here..or outloud..or any where really. in fact most people are completely unaware of my extensive knowledge of all things music. well, extensive may be fancying myself and perhaps lying a little bit. but i do have a lot to say and when in the company of people that i feel are "on my level", i enjoy talking about artists and citing references for samples, discussing remixes, reminising, etc.i could be the next fresh at crunktastical or something.
ha!
anyway-- he also sent me this block banger, that's a good look, baby, and a hood look.
beyonce's upgrade you
http://www.supload.com/listen?s=SPGxVl_m6M0
now, I'm usually prone to hate on her (despite my being a fan) and these hood chick anthems in which she caters to him while playing herself out and what not. quite frankly i think the bitch proclaims her crazy in "ring the alarm", in which she basically lets the world know that she isn't leaving jigga cause those vvs stones & royce's are HERS.
she's interesting. she's an independant woman but then other times she's like fuck it, i'll let him lead the way. i can identify. beyonce's southern, she knows there isn't anything wrong with holding down a man and the household...it's a womans job. infact, i sometimes reflect on how much i hate those bra burning feminist who decided women should be incorporated into society and do anything other than have children and cook a meal. do you know how much i'd like to do that? i want to be a house wife! shit.
anyway, i guess i'm no longer mad at her. i suppose i had to step outside myself and realize that i, in fact, feel the same way half the time.
sure it's a double standard but she's creole..which means she's a bit nuts anyway.
jigga better not leave the chick cause i'm sure she's itching to get her obeah woman on and concoct a mean potion to fuck his whole shit up.
lauren alyse belle at 3:51 PM
i haven't felt like posting in a while
Let's see.. I could either condense a months worth of stuff into a couple of paragraphs or I could just say, my lack of blogging has muchado with my lack of interesting things to say.I did visit woodstock though.
There are indeed a bunch of hippies and for some reason, all of the teenagers appeared to be strung out. I don't mean they were potheads, I mean they all looked like they'd been doped up. It was quite sad.
School starts in a few days.
That should be cool.
I can't even front. I'm going through some things.
I don't even feel right blogging, I don't feel like I can be honest so there's no point in saying anything.
Whateva.
lauren alyse belle at 3:23 PM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
ugh..
my brother continues to make my life easier by making it damn near impossible to be the disappointing child. we're still stomaching the second wife thing..but I belief this new stint has triumped it all.well, i'll preface the whole story by saying NO, I don't enjoy being in Cincinnati so much that I just *had* to run home for the 3rd time this summer. In fact, i came on Tuesday but didn't plan on coming until Sunday. Why? Because my mother informed me that my brother, sister in law & four of the children would be here. I haven't seen them in over a year and I want to be an active part of there lives..you know, the cool aunt. Plus the last time I saw my niece Amirah she was still a new born and she didn't look like anything yet.
Well, today is Sunday. I'm leaving tomorrow and I've been here since Tuesday. I have not seen my nieces and nephews. Normally they stay with us but this time they'd insisted that there other arrrangements would suffice..the United nation of Islam housing. Actually, I suppose it's important to note that they were here for the children to do something described as like a summer camp and for thier mother to take classes. It sounded nice at first, the kids are home schooled so tey definately needed the interaction with other children and thier mom could certainly use a break.
HOWEVER... Tuesday when I got here my sister in law informs me that they have tight schedules and she doesn't think I'll be able to see them until Sunday (but that's the only reason I'm here..). I grin and bear it but of course my mother isn't feeling that (my dad is over it completely). She calls my SIL back and reminds her that I only came to see them and asks her to make an exception. She says Wednesday looks good, seeing as how they will be finished with there task at 2.
Wednesday, noting. We called once and left a message as to not appear desperate. Mom & I decided to enjoy our time together and stop thinking about them.
I did..
But now it's Sunday. I'll be gone tomorrow. I want to see my fucking neices and nephews. My dad calls my brother to ask all of the important questions.. "can we just go by and see them?", "are we allowed to go sit with them at the (UNOI) diner?", "why didn't you inform us that this would be like this? lauren wouldn't have wasted the money to come here", "can we talk to them on the phone? can we go past and just wave, damn?"
nothing.
they aren't allowed company and have to request permission to leave.
Jim jones?
Anyway, I did get to spend some quality time with my first and only first cousin, Julian. He's 8 months I think & while he hasn't started walking, he can swim.
Speaking of which, I think I'm going to go tan.
lauren alyse belle at 8:11 AM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
being home rox!
limitless (& delicious) foodair conditioner
in-home laundry units
swimming pool
cable
a super comfortable bed
a little doggie (who i just realized is 10)
and my family
i can't wait to see my neices & nephews
soon as i do i'm uploading pics to show everyone how cuter-than-you they are
lauren alyse belle at 10:48 AM
Saturday, July 22, 2006
it's been raining
something seriousthe week started off blazing in a devastating way. too hot to function.
now theres incessant rain showers with regular ligthening storms too boot.
i'd never experienced that..thunder rolled and lightening illuminated my room for 30 minutes consecutively yesterday. i mean, the shit just never stopped..not for more than 10 seconds.
my scientist father explained the phenomenon to me.. apparently, clouds were bumping into one another steadily. it was quite scary. i wished i'd had a basement to hide in.
but anyway, fucked up weather has crippled my little bit of a social life. i've been taking naps all week and just feeling disoriented. because of the rain it's been dark all day so more than once this week i've woke up at 9 and had to really struggle to remember rather or not it was am or pm.
shit's kinda wack.
my mom's coming up here next week. she's doing some training in hartford, connecticut and well, I'm probably going to stay with her. I mean, it's a bit of a commute but I won't have anything to do and she'll have air conditioner.
lauren alyse belle at 9:07 PM
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
for whatever reason, i have had no interest in writing in this thing lately.maybe it's because i got a virus which wiped my whole shit out, yousendit me an album & i'll love you long time. for now i'm listening to myspace music pages and trying not to cry. even more depressing is all of the pictures i've lost. now i'll never be able to prove that i haven't had short hair my whole life, i have seen the tower lean in pisa, the schloss where the sound of music was filmed is just as lovely in the film as 'twas with me on the steps, and i suppose the most important picture missing from my archives is one totally incriminating photo of my dear afrotrash.
speaking of which, today was supposed to be the date of his visa appointment and subsequent beginning of the life of an *immigrant here in the states. since i'm on here rather than primping my whole existance, you can assume he didn't make it. of course this came as no surprise, i was advised well in advance that it just was not possible, so it's more like the anniversary of the death of a relative, a date you realize and have a quick moment about, than some day of great disappointment. honestly, this has muchado with why i haven't blogged, i've been feeling slightly overwhelmed with a lot of things, perhaps per usual, and didn't want to make emo blogs.
well, my dear sisters and brothers, i'm here to tell you that I am NOT emo. Not today at least. Sure being in a long distance relationship sucks but it's not like I'm going anywhere. he's not some jump off, you know?
at any rate, the other contributing factor that's been disrupting my blogging is my philosophy class. it's way too intense and difficult, something to be expected when they merge a semesters worth of work into 3 short weeks. i was really in for a surprise when i realized this dude expected so much shit.. i'm talking pop quizes, typed 2 page prompts for homework daily..sometimes along with other assignments, three 10 page essays, two 5 page position papers, in class debates, summaries, and finally, 2 test. I hardly feel like I have a moment to think about anything else.
gosh.
I'm counting on august.
ever read the secret life of bees? she was my favorite month.
* i was tempted to say (whispering) illegal immigrant but i'm not convinced the patriot act won't make me a victim. you know, i've rented and borrowed some pretty interesting films and books and it certainly doesn't help that i am/was muslim. so, bush, if you're reading this, rock on.
lauren alyse belle at 8:17 PM
Sunday, July 09, 2006
an update of sorts:
i'm officially a futbol fan.i like jdavey's live show.
my new peircing is cute.
haitian mango's are still the best.
heineken is best almost frozen.
those 3 are beautiful.
dont call me before 10 am.
you wont hear from me again.
im excited about the possibilites.
i want to go to paris in august.
still mad i missed tvotr.
still mad is missed seu jorge.
i should've taken philosophy sooner.
i should stop doing that.
maybe using white lighters IS bad luck.
my keyboard is sticky.
i was so wrong about her.
applebee's drinks are delicious.
all about lily chou chou is a weird ass film.
i want to ride out to the beach.
im going to start taking latin again.
italy>france.
lauren alyse belle at 2:43 PM