Thursday, April 13, 2006
i stole this from postsecret
I guess the first thing I wondered was if the person who wrote this was white. I'm already hip so I guess i just wish i had an afro. i could buy me an afro wig, but i'd rather let my own grow. i realized the other day i haven't had hair longer then 2 inches in over 2 years now. i don't even know what it's like. hair cutting is my nervous condition though & it really doesn't help that i think i look best with a caesar. whenever i'm transitioning and see a picture of me with short ass hair i'm running to find my clippers. but i want to get me a nice big fro & be fembohoesque for once. we'll see.i packed all of my stuff into a medium carry-on bag. I feel rather accomplished because i told myself i'd make this trip my experiment on efficient light packing for my nomadic future. things are really starting to look up on that end. once i figure out what i'm going to do with myself in pointe-noire or ghana or tanzania (lol) i'll feel a little bit better. i'm glad it's all out in the open & i can discuss plans with my parents so that they'll warm up to the idea of me moving to the other side of the world. they've got a while though. in july he'll meet the parents. i don't think anything i say will express how loopy my father is so i dunno, i'm apprehensive. but who cares, i'm glad we're going to ohio. perhaps it'll make some aspects of who lboogie is more clear.
i feel really drained right now because of arguing about dumb shit. luge called me the hulk. in a way he's right.. cause my reaction is always like calm>cool>mad>angry>mean as hell>over it
it comes out of no where sometimes but quite frankly i just dont even care enough to have regards for anyones feelings once im truly pissed off. then after i say whatever im feeling no retort or apologies, whatever, will phase me. once i get whatever off my chest i really could care less about what you gotta say cause i be over it mad quick. i dont hold on to anything.
well.
i hope i have the net over there.
i need some batteries for my digi cam
shiiiiiiiiit
lauren alyse belle at 9:38 PM