Saturday, April 08, 2006
i aint do nothin today
but i did have some bloody orangeaid&
i did watch a number of films
-anchor man
-troy
-office space
-nowhere in africa
i feel drained even though i didn't do anything at all
maybe it was all the snacks. munchies are not cool.
someone should invent some no calorie muchie killer
i talked to my mom today about moving & she hit me with the "whatever, nigga" response she's so keen on giving. i don't know why i always get so apprehensive about speaking to her on matters concerning D. I tend to forget that she can't kick me out or cut me off anymore.. I should be more accertive but she put fear in my heart. i can still remember beatings like they were yesterday & incidents with The ShoeTM. I should really learn how to say exactly what i feel to my mother. she probably won't even care.
i feel awful, i missed sabrina's birthday. I simply couldnt get up & out. Perhaps it was the long islands last night being chased with pot this morning. Maybe it was even the gloomy weather. Either way..that shit was NOT happening.
I'm setting up a 43 things account in a minute. I need to get a lil more organized.
5 days until austria. 3 until D becomes an old man.
lauren alyse belle at 11:23 PM